Ever since the country locked down for this coronavirus, I’ve been feeling out of sorts, off my game. I imagine there are lots of others who feel similar, and worse. I have a lot to be thankful for. My husband and I are both still working full time, and though we’ve had to deal with shortages of supplies and favorite foods, we have enough to eat.
It is such a strange time. I don’t tend to get out much normally, because so many of my interests are here at home. I prefer eating in, watching movies at home, small gatherings of friends. Yet even now, I’m feeling extremely disconnected, and time seems to pass so quickly without my accomplishing anything except gaining the “quarantine 15.” Actually, time seems to have both sped up and slowed down at the same time, because I also feel like I’m moving in jello.
I am trying to limit my social media now, because that is such a time suck. I’ve also realized how much more I want to buy as a result of its influence. When I left Ravelry (after they declared war on conservatives and supporters of President Trump, calling us all racists) and culled my Instagram and YouTube feeds (after the social justice warriors and intersectionalists decided to attack Karen Templer and then Maria Tusken), it became really apparent how much I had been spending. Too much. I have plenty of yarn and patterns to last me for at least the next 20 years or so. And that’s in addition to all of my fabric and quilting supplies.
I’m just so ready for the lockdowns to be over so we can get back to normal routines and living, not just existing. I don’t want to hear about a “new normal” because that wouldn’t have any semblance of normalcy. We don’t have long on this earth, and we never know how or when our lives here will be done. We can take reasonable precautions, protect the vulnerable, and get back to living and doing things. Those are not mutually exclusive choices.
Risk is a part of everyday life, and we should recognize and accept that. Of course, you can choose to limit your risk, as long as that doesn’t infringe on others’ freedoms.
Okay, I guess I’m down from my soapbox and musings for the evening. I guess my frustration and feeling adrift got the better of me tonight. I’ll have something more fun to share soon.
I just wanted to say your not alone. I know exactly what your talking about. Staying away from IG and FB as much as I can is refreshing. Oh, I bought some knitting needles at a new2me thrift shop this week bc I need more hobbies…NOT lol!
Thanks Amie! Hey, at least you’re getting them at a thrift shop and not paying full price. I really like knitting because it can be as easy or as complex as I need it to be. I have at least one easy (like just a plain garter stitch shawl) project going as well as a couple of other more involved projects (like my sweater and a scarf that has beads, lace, and cables) right now.